Wishing you enough
I never really thought that I'd spend as much time in airports as I do.
I don't know why. I always wanted to be famous and that would mean lots of travel. But I'm not famous, even though I do see more than my share of airports.
I love them and I hate them. I love them because of the people I get to watch. But they are also the same reason why I hate airports. It all comes down to1 " hello" and " goodbye."
I have great difficulties with saying goodbye. Even as I write this, I am experiencing that pounding sensation2 in my heart. If I am watching such a scene in a movie, I am affected so much that I need to sit up3 and take a few deep breaths.
So, when faced with a challenge in my life, I have been known to go to our local airport and watch people say goodbye. I figure4 nothing that is happening to5 me at the time could be as bad as having to say goodbye. Watching people cling to6 each other, crying, and holding each other in that last embrace makes me appreciate what I have even more. Seeing them finally pull apart, extending their arms until the tips of their fingers are the last to let go, is an image that stays forefront7 in my mind throughout the day.
But I learn from goodbye moments, too.
Recently, I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said," I love you. I wish you enough." She in turn said," Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy."
They kissed and she left……He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there, I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, " Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?"
" Yes, I have," I replied.
Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me. So I knew what this man was experiencing.
" Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever goodbye?" I asked.
" I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back would be for my funeral," he said.
" When you were saying goodbye I heard you say, ' I wish you enough.' May I ask what that means?"
He began to smile." That's a wish that has been handed down8 from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone."
He paused for a moment and looked up as if trying to remember it in detail, he smiled even more.
" When we said ' I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain9 them," he continued. Then, turning toward me, he shared the following as if he were reciting10 it from memory.
" I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough hellos to get you through the final goodbye."
He then began to sob and walked away.
My friends, I wish you enough!
绵绵祝福
我从未想过我会像现在这样在机场内度过那么多时间。
我不知道为什么。以前总想成名,那对我意味着有很多的旅行。但我没有成名,可我却总得往机场跑。
我喜爱机场,也憎恨机场。我喜爱它们是因为那里有我可以观察的人们。但这也正是我憎恨机场的原因。总是"你好"和"再见"那一套。
说再见对我来说很是困难。即使在我写这篇文章时,我内心也经历着强烈的感情冲击。如果我在一部电影里看到这种场景,我会大受感动,必须坐直深呼几口气。
正是因为这个原因,在生活中遇到难题时,我就会赶到我所在城市的机场看人们道别。我觉得我所遭受的任何事情都不会比不得不说再见更难受。看着人们相依相偎,哭泣着,最后一次紧紧拥抱着,我会对自己所拥有的一切倍感珍惜。看着他们最终分离,伸出胳臂直到指尖也不能再相触……这一情景会一整天萦绕在我心头,挥之不去。
但我也从道别的时刻得到些感悟。
最近,我无意听到一对父女在临别前最后时刻的对话。他们已经听到广播通知旅客登机了。站在安检门旁,他们拥抱着。他说,"我爱你,祝你拥有足够。"她回答说,"爸爸,我们在一起的生活已经足够了,您的爱就是我所需要的一切。我也祝您拥有足够,爸爸。"
亲吻之后,她走了。……他走向我坐着的窗前。站在那里,我可以看出他想哭,也需要哭出来。我不想打扰他的隐私,但他却主动跟我打招呼道,"你是否曾跟一个可能永不相见的人说过再见?"
"是的,我有过,"我回答。
话一出口唤起了我的回忆,想当年我曾对父亲为我所做的一切表达爱意与感激。意识到他在世的日子不多了,我抓紧时间面对面地告诉他他对我有多么重要。所以我知道这位先生此时的感受。
"原谅我的冒昧,但为什么这是永别呢?"我问。
"我年老了,而她住得太远了。有种种困难在等待我。现实是,下一次她返回时将是赴我的葬礼,"他说。
"当你们道别时我听你们说,'我祝你拥有足够。'请问那是什么意思?"
他笑了起来。"那是个延传了几代人的祝福。我的父母曾对每个人都说过。"
他停顿了片刻,仰起头来似乎在努力回忆细节,脸上的笑意更开了。
"当我们说'我祝你拥有足够'时,我们是在祈望对方生活中有足够的美好东西来支撑他们,"他接着说。然后转向我,与我分享以下的祝福,好像是在回忆中背诵。
"我祝你有足够的阳光让你的态度保持明朗。
我祝你有足够的雨水让你懂得欣赏阳光。
我祝你有足够的幸福让你精神活跃。
我祝你有足够的痛苦让生活中最小的快乐也尽放光芒。
我祝你有足够的收获来满足你的需求。
我祝你有足够的损失让你珍惜你的拥有。
我祝你有足够的"问候"以帮你度过最后的告别。"
然后他抽泣起来,转身离去了。
我的朋友,我祝你拥有足够!
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